When he was done he kneeled at their feet and washed them
Was he begging in his head remember me like this
Remember me as a servant
Not teacher disappointed because u feel asleep
Remember me as a friend
Not miracle worker who thousands come begging to
Remember my hands passing you bread, passing you wine eating a meal in good cheer
Do not remember a broken body weeping wounds crown of thorns
Remember me the carpenter’s son
Not the man nailed to a wooden cross
Remember the smile I had,
the cracked one no one will paint in 100 years as they think it imperfect,
the smile I had for you my students in those moments u figured it out for yourselves
Do not remember my chapped lips and horse throat
Remember me as Mary’s boy, the one she swaddled and kissed scrapped knees of
Her boy who featured in all her stories of the small free child running along side oxen on the road
Remember her story of trying to be like my father hammer and nail, build
something beautiful only to knick my palm
Tears streamed my face
my father guilt ridden over not watching me closer
She clicked at us, swaddle my wound chuckled in the kitchen about her gentle boys
Remember the blush on my cheeks over silly nicknames
How it managed to stand out even on my clay skin
Remember how you asked for more stories as I tried to not shy away
from the embarrassment
My mother happy to tell tales
Remember me like that
Not a long shadow on a hill
Not a body torn apart
Not blood flowing onto the grass like wine over flowing from a cup
He begged in the silence of his heart
My friends remember me as a man
Oil mixing with a tear they’d never see
On one video she tells me questions to ask my venue
About fees and rain plans
The next tells that if ice is knocking do not answer
The next is wedding regrets about picking the wrong venue, a 15 thousand dollar waste
Then a video of a wife crying out brain matter on her face
Another a child abducted from inside a jail, trafficked to Virginia
Followed by photographer paid extra to edit a phone out of a grooms pocket
I wonder if I should ask venues about ice plans
